It all started with a train journey..
I starting thinking about Allah..
Lying on the uppermost bunk,I thought:
"What if I start wearing an abaya?"
(No one had forced me,I wasnt going to any Islamic class,no one in my paternal side wore an abaya,I did not
have a Muslim friends group so it wasnt any external cause)
I prayed,I said:
"If I start wearing abaya,there will be a lot of criticism..friends..society..peer pressure.." So many desires to give up..
Huh ! 14 year old after all..
Then I do not know how or why..it just seemed that I was sharing something..my thoughts.. with my
Creator and making dua. A "deal" perhaps..something a 14 year old would do..
"If I do this,then would you pls do that for me?"
If I start wearing an Abaya.
(when I said that I did not mean wearing it at some places and removing at others according to my whims and fancies nor did I think it was a trial..Allah's Mercy)
I knew I would feel hot,
I knew there would be criticism,
I knew both sides..
If I start wearing,please give me success in everything..in studies,relationships and..(dont remember what else
I asked for).
And after I returned to Kolkata,Alhamdulillah,Allah gave me the courage to wear it the 1st day after
school reopened after summer vacation..
Ever since Alhamdulillah,I have not regretted taking that decision..
The deal was fulfilled..
Allah gives you what you want when you do what Allah has commanded you to do.
Today,I feel so proud to be a Hijabi...even though I might be the only one in a group or team-sports,
academics,gatherings.any where.
I feel happy and I am grateful to Allah that He made me choose obeying Him over obeying my desires..
Mercy from Allah,only He can Help and make you overcome the hesitation.
Today so many things that I want to do or think of doing,being a Hijabi,a Muslimah gives me the confidence..that
Allah's Mercy is on me and I have nothing to fear.
The feeling is beautiful..
It may "just be a piece of cloth", but once you start wearing it with the
correct intention,you are transformed..
You feel like you've become a power ranger from being a normal human,
or spiderman from being Peter Parker.
That "piece of cloth" reminds me that I'm not a slave of my desires but a slave of the Creator,Allah.
That "piece of cloth" reminds me that I'm not just a body for display and show-off but a dignified and precious
being like a pearl in a shell.
That "piece of cloth" reminds me that I'm not a slave of men but a slave of the Lord of men.
That "piece of cloth" reminds me that I am not to get carried away by anything
and everything..
It reminds me that I have a soul,that I will be held accountable..rewarded tenfold or more for every good and
punished one-fold for every evil.
It reminds me that I have a purpose..a mission in life. Alhamdulillah,I'm just a human being,a slave of All-Mighty Allah and it is not within my power,control or ability to do good,to obey Allah..
It is Allah alone,who is Most Merciful ,who Helps.
I love my Hijab.
May Allah Help us to be consistent and to do it for His Sake.Aameen.
I starting thinking about Allah..
Lying on the uppermost bunk,I thought:
"What if I start wearing an abaya?"
(No one had forced me,I wasnt going to any Islamic class,no one in my paternal side wore an abaya,I did not
have a Muslim friends group so it wasnt any external cause)
I prayed,I said:
"If I start wearing abaya,there will be a lot of criticism..friends..society..peer pressure.." So many desires to give up..
Huh ! 14 year old after all..
Then I do not know how or why..it just seemed that I was sharing something..my thoughts.. with my
Creator and making dua. A "deal" perhaps..something a 14 year old would do..
"If I do this,then would you pls do that for me?"
If I start wearing an Abaya.
(when I said that I did not mean wearing it at some places and removing at others according to my whims and fancies nor did I think it was a trial..Allah's Mercy)
I knew I would feel hot,
I knew there would be criticism,
I knew both sides..
If I start wearing,please give me success in everything..in studies,relationships and..(dont remember what else
I asked for).
And after I returned to Kolkata,Alhamdulillah,Allah gave me the courage to wear it the 1st day after
school reopened after summer vacation..
Ever since Alhamdulillah,I have not regretted taking that decision..
The deal was fulfilled..
Allah gives you what you want when you do what Allah has commanded you to do.
Today,I feel so proud to be a Hijabi...even though I might be the only one in a group or team-sports,
academics,gatherings.any where.
I feel happy and I am grateful to Allah that He made me choose obeying Him over obeying my desires..
Mercy from Allah,only He can Help and make you overcome the hesitation.
Today so many things that I want to do or think of doing,being a Hijabi,a Muslimah gives me the confidence..that
Allah's Mercy is on me and I have nothing to fear.
The feeling is beautiful..
It may "just be a piece of cloth", but once you start wearing it with the
correct intention,you are transformed..
You feel like you've become a power ranger from being a normal human,
or spiderman from being Peter Parker.
That "piece of cloth" reminds me that I'm not a slave of my desires but a slave of the Creator,Allah.
That "piece of cloth" reminds me that I'm not just a body for display and show-off but a dignified and precious
being like a pearl in a shell.
That "piece of cloth" reminds me that I'm not a slave of men but a slave of the Lord of men.
That "piece of cloth" reminds me that I am not to get carried away by anything
and everything..
It reminds me that I have a soul,that I will be held accountable..rewarded tenfold or more for every good and
punished one-fold for every evil.
It reminds me that I have a purpose..a mission in life. Alhamdulillah,I'm just a human being,a slave of All-Mighty Allah and it is not within my power,control or ability to do good,to obey Allah..
It is Allah alone,who is Most Merciful ,who Helps.
I love my Hijab.
May Allah Help us to be consistent and to do it for His Sake.Aameen.
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